A Friend to Remember – Nostalgia


Friend, a word, possesses power. So pleasing to hear when someone calls you. A pure word, that brings joy to you when it strikes your mind. Friendship isn’t meant for humans only, there exist friendship with animals and birds too; in the air, in water and inland, pair of dove, pair of dolphin, pair of elephant and so on. They thus hold in each step of life till it’s the last breath. From those academic schools to the school of life we have friends around us. Yeah its true, we fight with them and are jealous too sometimes. No matter, we eventually are happy for them and their success. It’s not that humans have only human as a friend; animals are good friend too. Also it doesn’t mean that living beings only can be friend. Nonliving objects can be friend. Your mobile in your loneliness, might be your laptop, iPod or television. If not any, then you have one from above world, Almighty GOD. Eventually, a true friend is the one wishing all the time for ages.

I have heard of friendship. Some were great one and amazing. I have seen, in real and in movies, movies in the sense that they were taken from somewhere real not known to us. I too got some friends, some living and some non-living; School friend, college friend, social friend, online friend and professional friend. One of my friends once told me about different other types of friends; hi-hello friend; you just say hi, hello or short chat, calling friend; you like to talk on the phone, chatting friend; you text online, shopping friend; you go to buy things, partying friend; you go to parties with, inspiring friend; you are inspired by things he/she does, idol friend; you want to be like, concert/movies friend; you go for movies and concert with and sharing friend; you share your feelings and secrets. Besides, there is one more special kind best friend. One to having almost all kinds of friend types in one, family pack version of friendship. Some people may also call it BFF (best friend forever).

In the journey of life, I have met many people. Some of them were good and lets say some were less good. I had some friends from those people. Being a tech-guy seems to have few friends and that’s true. They all believed that we are some freaky space aliens, crazy over technology and those senseless complex talks; kind of boring type. Where in the world do people be the friend of such; unless, they are the same class/category. There are times in life, miracles do happen. Had to believe in existence of angels. For magic to happen wizard is absolute. There is no doubt that to met angels something magical should happen. By an old friend of mine, I happen to know her. I would say that friend is my wizard and she was my angel, beloved of all.

It was my hard time. I was lonely or say been away from friends which I want. Student life those boring lectures, hectic days, examination pressure and above all you got, no place to pour your feelings and emotions. Life always shows some ways for us to move forward. Certainly it was my best time that through a friend of mine, I knew her a new friend. Of Course, its technology that brought us known to each other. It’s non other than Viber through which communication was initiated, latter Calls, SMS, Skype and Facebook were used. The times with her were the happiest moment of my life. There were always so much to share everyday. Hours we chat and hours we call everyday.

That time I couldn’t define my happiness. It has crossed all bounds. It’s like getting a fresh water spring in the middle of the Sahara desert. Feelings were sweet as honey. The first time when I talked to her I was impressed. Not that her voice was sweet, but her way of being friendly drag me in. I had never had such friend till then. I just want is to talk to her all way long for ages long, never wanted to hang up call. Why shouldn’t I do so? She was the best ever person I met; no-offence to other friends. She was like yummy cream of milk the best of the best. It was the first talk that made to conclude that I need her till my last breath. I couldn’t let such good person go away. Hey Hey!! Wait, I could sense you smell something, she was my friend not girlfriend and I do want her as pure friend only and I still do now.

Within just a week we were like best friends. And for the first time she told me the word BFF. Seriously, I had not heard or seen that word till then. We were known to almost every past of each other. You can imagine how much we had chat in just a week. Nothing is hidden in between nor any remained to share. We had loads of similarities and few differences. It was a joyous moment and interesting too we had to find what are our differences instead of similarities. Sounds so rare moment isn’t it? The favorite thing also matters, foods likings like cauliflower, Paneer, Kheer, etc. And similar are disliked too. Yes, there are things about color choice for different things and same for the dressing sense. Strange things happened to both of us. Once I burnt my hand near thumb while cooking and at that very day she also got burnt on the same place near thumb. It’s not measurable that how much I thank GOD those times for such a true friend that he brought into my life.

Yet, there were nothing left of day ago to share, everyday there was eagerness to share what happened that day. From the people we met, the food we tasted to new things that we learnt, was all shared waiting each other. Showing new things we brought, asking comment on how that was, those moments are still fresh in head like yesterday. Travelling to new places and describing them to other, felt like visiting those places just by those descriptions. We had logical argument over matters & problems, suggestions and solutions are given. Those were marvelous days. Those small fights are sweet that time. Fights were sweet in the way that they end up in just a few hours. If anyone is upset or angry, another tries to cherish and pacify. The caring and the bond felt the strongest among us. The relation is pure as brother and sister and strong. In other words, it can be defined as perfect BFF, Best Friend Forever. BFF is a Vow that we took to be forever and stand for other in every moment of life. It’s being eye when blinded or support when leg broke.

There were countless hours of chatting over Facebook, even when attending classes in college, which was so CRAZY stuff. Luckily, I was never caught at class or might be the teacher ignored me. We used to send Unlimited Free SMS through Text Free Pinger app, certainly that caused them quite a few dollars so later they removed free SMS service. Don’t know how much it costs to pay to telecom if there weren’t free services like those. During the holidays chatting has been from morning to night continuous. We used to call over Viber and Skype all night to morning. The next day I sleep at classes during breaks. I didn’t realize one thing that time that how she managed time for our friendship. I only had college. But she was able to attend college meanwhile doing job and household stuffs. She had given too much in friendship. Hats off for her efforts, I got no perfect words for her that could describe her dedication. I only came to know that thing when I joined job. It’s really hard to manage time.

The amazing thing happened was, the guy who lacks things to chat in just a few minutes was able to chat and call for hours. The shyness, hesitation and introvert nature were gone. So far as I remember it were some 18 hours of chatting and 8 hours of calls. Those were my optimum limits till now. There was joy in sharing and immense pleasure in the trust we have. We never mind on things that was said nor we say sorry or thanks. Whenever possible we make fun of each other, cracking jokes and laughing aloud at midnight seems like some mental patient who had flown away from mental hospital. Laughing in silly talks. Making funny faces in video calls. Sometimes, I sneakingly was able to grab a screenshot of such faces, just for memories.

Lasting of happy moments for long happens very rarely. The best memory of such sweet friendship ended in 5 months; starting from Feb 8, 2012 to Jul 14, 2012. Even her birthday has not faded from my memory. It is really amazing that I still remember all those dates till now even after almost 2 years. It seems those memories of mine won’t fade forever. The promises that I had made during haunts me like some scary ghost every moment, as I was unable to fulfill those.

I was astonished to know about the breakup of our friendship for the reason I am still unknown. But I know reason must be very strong. I didn’t believe that for some months. I thought it was some serious prank done to me. As I knew it wasn’t, I give my best to know the reason for it and try to keep friendship but it never happened. Certainly, it gave pain in heart, as I never expected such thing from her. My belief in friendship is so broken that I cannot describe in words. I had never ever dream of anything such to happen. Whenever those memories were recalled or revived by some incident always brings tears in my eyes. This resulted me to be skeptical towards friendship. The joy, happiness occurring out of friendship seems like a myth to me now.

 

Youth Leadership Development Seminar through Me


It was just another Saturday morning but it’s a bit different today. I woke up, Seminar Group Photodid routine task, eat lunch and was ready. I was going to my first non-technical seminar (completely out of subject I knew). It was my first 3-day seminar. It’s Youth leadership development seminar, for creative and innovative leadership for prosperous Nepal organized by GPYC-Nepal. Taking public transportation I managed to reach the venue in time i.e. 10 am. I was bit disappointed to know participants did came late. So the program was bit delayed.
Humm!! to my surprise, it was started interestingly by MC (kinda informal introduction). A “fire in the house” game was played. I liked that game and the way of introduction to each other through it. Also I found it as good way of team formation for such seminar. Initially my team consist 7 members, which at end of day became 9 by extra 2 members addition in mid of day. Finally we formed team and named it “Rising Star” with motto of “Strength in Weakness”. Continue reading

Anguished Devil


A deadly furious fire breathing noisy giant hairy creature with huge teeth, pointy horn head
devil_imgand short tail possessing enormous strength was presented as DEVIL to us. Also it is said to have no heart. Possibly, it could be the ugliest and fearful one. Ages we have heard of angel and devil, different stories in books and those fascinating childhood stories describing the battles, fights and wars between them and finally, prince’s, angel’s or god’s triumph over devils. We listen for our amusement. Enjoy the victory over the devil. Conversely, celebrating on failure of devil.

World has loads of mystery, unreachable aspects, hidden truth and more which incorporates loads of things. There in that world resides a devil. The devil is selfish one (Obviously that’s the nature). But to wonder is that the devil is not cruel (Huh!! Can that happen?). It marvels of its life inside those fortified surrounding around which has been made its world. It is unknown to the rest world and it sees nothing more outside those fortified walls. Horizon has been ended inside for that devil. To devil, beyond those walls are vacant space only as it couldn’t ever dream to move out of those walls and explore the rest world around. Those walls are so strong and high where neither is way to break in through nor can jump over it. Hence, its confinement is to that tiny part in the world far away which veil its identity. Continue reading

Beloved Mine


a sunny day and bright hopebeloved mine
saw you there, my heart cope

felt crazy and you reign over
current lightened, then cover

it was then and so is now
will be there, that’s a vow

see my world and tell beautiful
turn to mirror, hey be careful

dawn to dusk and dusk to down
want you dear, see you around

that glowing face and killing glance
energize me, with heart dance

always admired and affection drugged
mind paralyzed,slowly heart crushed

waited too long and can’t wait more
die to hear, me as your core

like fairy tales and fancy dreams
you my princess, I be your prince

hard battle and long is queue
feel your heart, I Love you….

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Make me child ….Make me smile teach me live once again


Make me child ….Make me smile teach me live once again…
Crawling in mud,
Covering under dust…o’ those sweet memories drench me once again…smile
Yelling on hunger,
Fighting for attention,
Smashing the pots,
Ruining the house…so lovely was it revive me once again…
Fearless heart,
Doubtless dare,
Sweet the care,
Immense the love …such truly days pull me once again…
Motherly lap,
Fatherly care,
Sisterly possession ,
Brotherly affection…miss that all call me once again…
Stealing pencil,
Hiding behind,
Mario game,
Saving princess …lovely story tell me once again…
Gaining height,
Birthdays gifts,
Praising prize,
New school…little things though give me joy once again…
Fake world,
Powerful money,
Corrupt position,
Selfish people,
Drag me to child once again…make me smile teach me live once again…. Continue reading